Seasonal Decline.

Colors dim.
Faces fade.
Buildings wear.
Things change.

Maybe it's just me, but someone tell me what's going on here.

My soul is feeling so alone..

Status:

Mom- raging alcoholic who makes my life miserable.
(I just wish she loved me.)
Dad- can't help me because he's afraid my mom will divorce him.
(I just want help.)
Steve- Completely in love with me, can't see past his jealousy.
(I just want a friend.)
Roman- Thousands of miles away, still head over heels.
(I just want to be by your side.)


I'm empty.
Poland, here I come.

I am insecure.

I'm not who you think.

(:

I lost faith in humanity long ago.

KissKissKiss

I just wanna kiss you.
I just wanna rap to you.
I just wanna sing for you.
I just wanna jump on you.
I just wanna dance around you.
I just wanna tell you retarded things.
I just wanna look pretty for you everyday.
I just wanna smoke with you, like old times.
I just wanna hold hands in our totally cool way.
I just wanna take walks through the park with you.
I just wanna wrestle with you, and have it turn sexual.
I just wanna sit and watch you get fancy with the spices.
I just wanna stay up until 5 a.m., lying next to you, talking.
I just wanna steal all of your clothes, so that you stay naked.
I just wanna scream from the rooftops, "I love Roman Pakieser!"
I just wanna steal your combs, because I'm unprepared, yet again.
I just wanna look at the puppies with you, reminding myself, "soon."
I just wanna smack your butt, and then run away before I get caught.
I just wanna play HALO until I beat you, and you act like you let me win.
I just wanna let you scare the hell out of me, just so you can make it better.
I just wanna kiss random parts of your face, until you awaken each morning.

I just wanna love you forever.

To put it simply,

It's too hard for me to talk to you every day.
I break down and cry every time.
I'm not slipping away, I'm saving myself.
It may be selfish, but it hurts.

I wish you were here,
I miss every single ounce of you.

"And whenever I want to kiss you, yeah.
All I've Gotta Do,
Is whisper in your ear,
The words you long to hear.
Yeah, that's All I've Gotta Do."